Here's my unique situation

I have to get this off my chest. So I had a best friend that I lived with. I was told by numerous people NOT to move in with this girl (she's very just... needy and naive and I'm not-long story). Well, that lasted for 3 months (9/29/07-is when I moved back to my MOTHER'S). And we'll never be friends again. Which is fine, because I kind of stop respecting about 5 years ago because of the idiot choices she kept making.

Fast forward to 02/02/07: Let me just preface this by saying growing up... My mom wasn't the best person to me. I think she's always hated me for one reason or another (maybe because I didn't have children at 15 like she did or chose molesting men over the safety of my only daughter LIKE SHE DID). Well, that all finally came to a head when I had to take off from work to go to the Emergency Room and my supervisor offered to take me ( I couldn't really walk).

As always, she takes things as a personal attack on her parenting skills (I'm 30 just in case you didn't know) and blew up on me. We had a huge argument. My brother and her boyfriend (that she's cheating on-by the way) try to mediate it. But 25 years of anger and resentment is hard to mediate so she basically cursed me, my relationship with my boyfriend and told me I'll never be shit without her. THEN KICKED ME OUT. OVER A RIDE TO THE EMERGENCY ROOM THAT I DIDN'T NEED BECAUSE I HAVE A CAR!!!

Interesting, indeed! Since now I am essentially homeless (I'm at my boyfriend's house at the moment...But I want my own place), but I have a good job with good benefits, that pays well...And I'm up for raise. But I do not have a roof over my head. It's frustrating but I won't go back to that craziness. All my life my mother treated me like shit, but treated my brothers like kings. And my youngest brother doesn't understand why I'm so adamant on not resolving THIS mess.

I don't know what to do. It's frustrating. I've been on my own since I was 21 and to come home now and to be humiliated like this is my mother's joy.

Procrastinating

I am procrastinating my ass off today! I do NOT feel like doing a thing! I have work to do that I don't feel like doing. My phone is going crazy because everyone wants to get what they want before Thanksgiving (which is basically impossible). Ughhhh...

I'm so distracted today because my car won't be available to me until 11/27 and I'm going to be out 800 dollars because of it... But I am thankful none the less... It could be worse.

To my readers (if I even have any at this point) my blogs will get better, I'm new to this! I'm a little scattered right now...lol!

This week is going to be a hectic one

Just when I get a grip on my finances, my car (a Honda Accord, no less) goes out of commission. RIGHT. BEFORE. CHRISTMAS. And the dealer can't seem to tell me what it is until maybe Wednesday (the holiday makes it that much more difficult). So now, I rely on others to get me around and it sucks. SUCKS!!

I had my budget all ready to go and was going to start my Christmas Shopping strategy on Black Friday with online shopping just to get the sales, hit Macy's for my mothers massive Coach Tote (just because she knows she'll get it from me), and so on and so on...

But Noooo... My car wants to act all crazy and who knows what the price will be on that. And my warranty ran out in January of this year. Yeah... My "holiday season" is off to a great start.

*sigh*

Okay, this is officially setting me off.

There's this man at my job that has Chronic D.O.M.S. (Dirty Old Man Syndrome) and today, he's about catch this biggest cuss-out I ever had to deliver. How many times can you tell someone that you are not interested or it will never happen? This man is NOT getting mixed signals from me, he's not getting smiles or anything even close! He getting things more along the lines of "blank stares", or silence and he still has the delusion that I'm ENJOYING his little flirtatious, cringe-worthy, one-liners!

Examples of cringe-worthy one-liners: "I have a daughter your age." (accompanied by an old, wrinkly slow wink)

"If I were about 3O years younger..."

" You have a shape like my wife!"- this right here... Makes me throw up a little in my mouth- Ugggh... so are you trying to say I'm shaped like a 60 year old lady?

Ugh... I'm not one to stir up drama at the job or anywhere for that matter. I'm just trying to do my job and I do not need advances from a Dinosaur.

I'm not trying to offend anyone of this age, but he needs to be ashamed of himself. I am not going to our Christmas party because of this.

Baby Steps to Budgeting

So, my new thing is to be responsible as I walk happily into my "30's". I've set up this iron-clad budget that I can adhere to because I just wasn't getting a grip on my finances as I sailed "blindly" through my 20's. I literally worked like a dog and had nothing to show for it. And frankly, it made me an irritable b**ch!

But NOW... As I stick to my little budget, I've realized how much money I actually make and I can actually see what the hell I'm doing with my life. I have a long term goal and a short term goal and I think I can at least get to my short term goal in about 6 weeks. It's amazing what writing down your expenses can do for you. I've really opened my eyes and realized that spending all of my paycheck is not going to make happy.

Socking away tons of cash just might!

Turning 30 (Who turned on the lights?)

Ah yes, I've FINALLY turned 30 as of November 1st and if feels like someone turned the "lights" on in my mind. It felt as if my 20's were going to go on FOREVER. I'm probably the only woman in the entire world that couldn't wait to leave my twenties behind.

Everything started to make sense, my life direction, my character, my income (because for the life of me, I did not have a handle on my finances and a week before my birthday it all started to make sense and now I can SEE my money). I just feel like I have a solid grip on my life now not wondering through life with a blindfold on.

Wow! I didn't know turning 30 would be this liberating!

Hmmm...

Okay, here's the update: I'm still with the same guy. I adore him. He adores me. Clearly he's insane.